– mish mash of psychedelic ideals

A vs B June 18, 2009

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“eh. choose A or B.”
“choose what?”
“just sayyyyyy. A or B! fasterrrr…”
“why do u want me to choose??!”
“just sayyyyyyy!”
“okay okay…..B!”
“yay! I also chose B!”
“#%£¥@!….ask me to choose for what.”

there are times when we know what we ought to choose (mostly) but just want to hear someone else’s opinion. if they agree – good. if they don’t? we’ll convince them to – by selling all the good points of the choice you made.

I’ve lost count of the number of times I’ve said “what would you do if you were me?” and I’d go “YAHHHH…” if they reiterated what I said seconds before. we just love it when people agree with us, don’t we? (it’s the same with clothes but that’s another thing altogether).

but sometimes it’s not the number of people who agree with you that count. 10 people agreeing with you doesn’t mean – yay! we’re right. it is not always a case of “majority wins” 100% of the time. we could all be wrong for that matter.

I was tossing in bed deciding between my A and B. between something I’d like and something I thought would be good for me. and then it hit me.

making a decision is being lead by the “life” aka “the peace within”. (the tree of life vs the tree of knowledge of good and evil). choosing that which is life over that which i perceive is good for me.

it’s 205AM and I’ve made my choice :)

xoxo Jesus’ little girl


.GREAT is your GRACE. June 17, 2009

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its uncanny how the previous post got automatically labeled <505> when i didn’t deliberately leave the heading out. i just didn’t know what to caption it.

it just somehow got itself tagged as <505>

your grace is sufficient for me and your strength made perfect in my weakness.




June 16, 2009

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those words got caught in the depths of my throat. those four words I rehearsed and re-rehearsed (if there is such a word) about a zillion times all the “one-hour” way home. I tried to swallow but I choked.

deliberating the methods of facing up to my undoing; I chose confrontation (one to one) over texting, lest I startle her with my incompetent phrasing.

I parked, got out of the car, looked at my mum squarely in the eyes and said, “I crashed the car.” it was out in a heartbeat.

there was a pregnant pause – followed by, “where?”

the entire family proceeded to scrutinize the damage. I stood there rooted to the ground. if there was a perfect situation to describe speechless, this would be it.


later that night, she asked me how I felt. I went quiet and thought about it for abit. it kinds felt like a cross between being stuck in a whirlwind and a tormenting storm.

as the storm rages, you are faced with the threat of being thrown overboard. you hang onto the sails and then the realization hits you – slowly but surely. there is a captain in charge of the ship. he steers the ship. he will never let you get hurt let alone entertain the thought of you being thrown overboard. and you? you belong onboard the ship. all you need to do is rest. and watch him ride the waves and calm the storm.

I don’t have all the answers and I don’t always know why, but I know that YOU are in control. and I judge your love for me, faithful – a love that never fails – by the cross.

you are my strength regardless of my circumstance.

xoxo Jesus’ girl :)


.IN HIDING. June 15, 2009

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– selah.

in times when words aren’t enough and tears have run dry.

those very moments where the sound of silence is all that you hear.

your word falls afresh on me like rain in the afternoon sun.

For in the time of trouble he shall hide me in his pavilion: in the secret of his tabernacle shall he hide me; he shall set me up upon a rock – psalm 27:5

oh how i hold fast to your word.

you are my defence – cause i am powerless to defend myself.




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God is Cheering for You

by Max Lucado

If your God is Mighty enough to ignite the sun, could it be that He is mighty enough to light your path?

God is for you. Not “may be,” not “has been,” not “was,” not “would be,” but “God is!” He is for you. Today. At this hour. At this minute. As you read this sentence. No need to wait in line or come back tomorrow. He is with you. He could not be closer than he is at this second. His loyalty won’t increase if you are better nor lessen if you are worse. He is for you.

God is for you. Turn to the sidelines; that’s God cheering your run. Look past the finish line; that’s God applauding your steps. Listen for him in the bleachers, shouting your name. Too tired to continue? He’ll carry you. Too discouraged to fight? He’s picking you up. God is for you.

God is for you. Had he a calendar, your birthday would be circled. If he drove a car, your name would be on his bumper. If there’s a tree in heaven, he’s carved your name in the bark. We know he has a tattoo, and we know what it says. “I have written your name on my hand,” he declares (Isa. 49:16).

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Life Lessons


Promised Denalyn a purse for her birthday. Hence, I’m sitting in a purse store. You might say the gift is in the bag. Chuckle.
June 4th
Been out of tweet orbit for several days. Reason #1- phone problems. #2- I’m on vacation!
June 2nd
Jenna, my eldest daughter, just finished the final edit on her first book! Way2go, sweetie. “Redefining Beautiful” releasing August 1.
June 2nd