*pursue! July 18, 2009
we headed to the foodcourt to fellowship after the mind-blowing talk.
an insight through the eyes of a true blue citizen – it renewed my love for the most beautiful country (in my own opinion) and re-ignited the zeal and passion i had for that nation. His nation. the ground on which His footprints were embedded upon and the storms which stilled in an instant, at the sound of His voice.
it was fun, laughing with the group of about 9 of us as we rarely have time for such gatherings on other days :)
“eh, shall we go for service after this?” one asked.
“yes, lets.” on any other day i would’ve said no. only because i didn’t want to take the time to. having this pre-conceived notion that sat’s are for lazing by the pool, etc if there weren’t meetings of sorts. but this was different. okay, somewhat. because i was already there, i thought hey, let’s just go.
and so we went. and we were not disappointed. in contrary, we were enlightened. i felt the weight lift from my shoulders and i emerged – a Champion. not that i wasn’t one before i went in. but simply because i was reminded of my worth in You.
i was in tears even before the sermon began as i felt Your love wash over me.
2 weeks of insufficient sleep albeit tossing and turning was beginning to take its toil on me but i remained in denial. i carried the weight of my challenge on my own shoulders though i said i’ll cast them to You. trying instead of trusting. attempting to make my own decision though You told me “Go For It” twice when i asked You what i should do. i swallowed my fears and dried my tears. put on a facade of strength to carry on. and i feigned it well. till now.
“The word for the next half of the year is : PURSUE.”
my jaw dropped.
“In the next half of the year, you will see the promises of God come to pass in your life.”
the tears fell.
in an instant, the walls i built so meticulously well, fell to the ground.
i liken this to standing at the edge of the cliff. your legs are strapped securely, awaiting the fall. it is time to bungee but you dare not jump. your legs are paralysed and you can’t seem to move. all because you looked down. your eyes have now shifted from your place of security to the insecurities that present itself before you. your focus has inadvertently panned to the giants.
fear is subtle. it’s kinda like those creepers you know? that grow slowly but surely. and wrap itself around your thoughts…only if you allow it to. no wonder You told us to guard our hearts. to rest in You. to trust You. to bank on Your unending grace. thank you for Your word that reminded me to shift my focus on Your love for me. to shift my focus to You. the One whose name when mentioned evokes even mountains to bow.
i love this in the MSG bible version of Philippians 4:7 that says <Before you know it, a sense of God’s wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down. It’s wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the center of your life.>
who says the promised land didn’t have giants?
only 2 saw the fruit and pursued.
i want to be numbered among those two :)
xoxo Jesus’ beloved
p/s: besides lazing by the pool, meetings and trainings of sorts, i now have a new dedication for sat’s. oh joy! :)